I have to be honest with you. The past two days haven’t been fantastic. For some reason, I’m really fighting a battle within myself to get committed to eating right. On an academic level, I know that eating whole, unprocessed food is what’s best for me and my family. But there is something holding me back from taking all the necessary steps to be successful at eating well. This morning I started out well with one egg and a cup of tea.
I ate it slowly and really enjoyed some quiet moments with my tea and a new book. It was truly delightful. A little while later, I walked into the kitchen and spied some cookies I’d made for the kids in the cookie jar. well, I felt like I HAD to have one. Errrr, two.
Hey! They were organic at least.
Then, at my sister’s house later, I had a bit of the shepherd’s pie she had made for dinner last night, which was delicious incidentally. After eating that, I felt certain that I would have no need for lunch. A little while later at home, I went into the kitchen and had some left over corned beef and cabbage.
Hmmmm. Just not doing so well. Nevermind this is the THIRD meal I’ve had from this! Yesterday morning I made my own corned beef hash.
Last night for dinner I had two slices of White Pizza from a local pizza joint.
I think part of the problem is I’m feeling a little down. My husband has taken on the challenge of getting his MBA. We already don’t get to see him very much because he works long hours. Now when he’s home, he’s very, very busy and it’s going to be like that for at least the next two years. I want him to get his MBA and I support him wholeheartedly. It’s something he’s wanted to do for a really long time. It’s just a tough adjustment and we’re still trying to hit our stride with it. In the meantime, I’m just finishing up my 6th week of recovery after my hysterectomy, and have a lot of work ahead of me once I’m cleared by the doctor to do it. It doesn’t take much walking around my house to make me feel overwhelmed by the scale of the task at hand. Every single room is a mess! Sometimes I feel like putting our most precious things in the car, walking out the front door and never looking back! It’s that bad. I know that by doing a little bit at a time it will get done but as I’ve seen with my weight loss attempts, knowing and doing are two different things.
Sorry that this post is such a downer but I’m just trying to keep it real and honest. Eating right is not hard but making up your mind and totally committing to it seems to be very difficult for me right now. I’m not giving up though. Just venting my frustration about my current lack of willpower.
I WILL be back tomorrow. This blog is a blessing! I don’t know what I’d do without a place to vent.